jayla raye online: one month on lexapro!!!

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october 2026

me when i said i'd start writing movie reviews again and then i never did

october 16, 2026 · 2:25 pm

guys i can't let this blog rest for 5 minutes without updating so say hello to our new tab icons!!! i'm gonna tweak them around a little i think...

october 13, 2026 · 11:34 pm

finally catching up on f1! i haven't watched since hungary because i've just been wayyy too exhausted to wake up for them... thanks a lot lexapro!

october 10, 2026 · 2:59 pm

am i a crazy person for already planning the winter theme... like fall is BARELY even upon us i need to slow down...

october 9, 2026 · 11:32 am

the people have spoken! our first book club read is 'The Lamb' by Lucy Rose! we start reading on monday (or whenever you want if you already have the book)! it's officially book club time!

october 2, 2026 · 1:05 pm

september 2026

2 more days until our first book club read! so far we have a tie so cast your votes! also i'm finally seeing primetime tonight... scared!

september 30, 2026 · 12:29 pm

resident evil was AMAZING! i loved it way more than weapons. our whole theater was having a blast, i'm so glad i saw it in IMAX! shoutout to my bff taylor for joining me❤️

september 27, 2026 · 11:25 pm

finally seeing the new resident evil movie tonight!! wish i didn't already see 150 spoilers 😍

september 27, 2026 · 3:54 pm

i got my first macbook today after having a windows laptop for the past 10 years and i am genuinely so confused already... but i got back from the movies to see we hit 50 FOLLOWERS!!! i'm so grateful you all stopped by ❤️

september 24, 2026 · 9:08 pm

I'M SEEING AVENGERS: ENDGAME IN THEATERS TOMORROW!!! i didn't see it in theaters when it first came out and i regretted it ever since. I'M SO EXCITED!!!

september 23, 2026 · 10:17 pm

ok i changed some things visually to get a more cohesive theme going and i've been staring at it for too long so pls lmk how you're feeling about it... i am the most indecisive girl on the face of the earth!!!

september 20, 2026 · 1:22 pm

updated the kindle widget and now she's incredibly gorgeous and i love her!

september 19, 2026 · 4:14 pm

it's been decided: Pretty Little Liars! i haven't rewatched in a couple years and i haven't seen the finale since it came out so i'm scared...

september 17, 2026 · 9:15 pm

desperately needing to start a fall show. stuck between restarting pretty little liars, true blood, or the vampire diaries. i'll have to consult my mother! (my tv watching partner)

september 17, 2026 · 4:19 pm

i forget what it was like to breathe through an un-stuffed nose...💔

september 15, 2026 · 12:10 pm

cracked open Nights at the Circus today and i feel like i've just entered another planet. such fun and whimsical writing! hoping it gets me out of my reading slump!

september 14, 2026 · 4:10 pm

just added a new about me page if you're wondering who the hell i am! we also just hit 20 followers on here and i already feel like we have a little growing community. thanks so much for being here! 💋

september 13, 2026 · 5:58 pm

this is a secret message for my bff dayna who just found this blog today! hey sister!

september 13, 2026 · 4:18 pm

sooo where are we finding fun interactive widgets? i've found a few on neocities and tiktok (and those of you who include your blog codes. actual lifesavers!!!) but is there a secret third place? pls lmk!!!

september 12, 2026 · 3:33 pm

sneak peek at what i'm cooking for the reel/girl fall theme... 😉

september 11, 2026 · 3:02 pm

went to the thrift store with my friends yesterday and didn't have much luck 💔 all i got was true blood season 2 on dvd for my mommy! good thing it's almost true blood season!

september 10, 2026 · 12:49 pm

a girl from my high school was on love island and now everyone is chewing her up for being a mean girl. i have to laugh!!! can confirm she's got a reputation around here, and it's not a good one...

september 2, 2026 · 6:50 pm

it's been 4 years since i chopped all my hair off in a manic breakdown! never doing that again!

september 2, 2026 · 2:17 pm

btw i'm on substack! i don't post super often but that's where my longer form thoughts live. there's a lot i'm super proud of over there🤍

september 1, 2026 · 5:36 pm

was woken up at 7am this morning to the sound of wood chippers and chainsaws directly outside my window. the neighbors were chopping down trees and couldn't wait until afternoon i guess... early bed tonight!

september 1, 2026 · 4:47 pm

new status chat just dropped! found this on andi's archive on neocities, just changed it a little to match!

september 1, 2026 · 4:18 pm

Friday, August 21, 2026

one month on lexapro!!!

three cheers for SSRIs!!!

basically i raw dogged life for 24 years before i decided enough was enough. a month ago today i started my lexapro journey (with help from my bff lauren <3) and all i can say is... wow. i was really going through the horrors and for what?!?!?

so far i haven't experienced the craziest changes, like it's only been a month so i wasn't really expecting anything different, but the changes i have seen have made me very hopeful for the future!

my first 2-2.5 weeks were spent half/fully asleep (sorry to all the friends i ditched due to being unconscious!), but the sleepiness has mostly worn off!

the one difference i've noticed more than anything else is the crazy, insane dreams i've been having. before lexapro i would get the occasional normal dream, wake up, and completely forget about it in like 20 minutes. but NOW? i wake up and it feels like i just lived 15 different lifetimes in the span of 8-10 hours.

i'm probably going to start keeping a dream journal or something because they get so weird and vivid, and i remember them so clearly as if these things really happened. the other night i had a dream that i cut all my hair off with kitchen scissors. thankfully that was not real! (been there, done that. never again!)

they say your dreams are just the lives you live in alternate realities, and if that's true, there's an alternate version of me that's currently in a relationship with drew starkey. last night we were house hunting. it was pretty fun, hope she's happy.🙄

but long story short, i'm excited for my less anxious future! hopefully my dreams don't get weirder!

2 comments:

rinnyAugust 21, 2026 at 12:20 PM
ugh i totally relate! i was on lexapro for 2 years and it was awesome but ugh i dont miss the sleepiness at the beginning.. sending you love and support on ur journey<3
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